Minus a complete mindfuck day at work today where I was trapped with no one of interest to talk to for the entire day and having no work to do also. I managed to get a few things done at work today.

While openly flirting with one of the girls, and arranging it so we had our breaks together, I did get around to finally asking her out. Now despite my request to her that if I did take her out that it would be only between us, she seemed to be a little ignorant to that. Hence making me question her stance on this. However she did show some interest, and well, time will tell where this goes. I'll be talking to her again tomorrow about it, face to face of course, since I am sick of using the phone or email for these things.

And I dont really want to jump to conclusions yet, I'll just let this play out and try to make use of my confidence. Make a few moves and hopefully get her attention, since it seems thats all it really takes these days.

Either that, or casino girls are truly just a different breed of animal.

I hope that the soap opera at work, involving someone extremely close to me came to an end tonight. But I dont know, girls are like that, they say one thing and then just turn around and do the opposite. Of course, I truly hope its all over and that situations like this never happen again to me. In any workplace or schoolplace, anywhere, period.

Sigh, it seems everyone is really all stressed out about these things right now. Another girl is making the same mistake again, I really cant even pity someone who is that naive, blind to the fact that she is being used. Poor thing, I tried to slap some sense into her, with some verbal abuse, but I highly doubt she'll listen.

Girls never listen to me. It is like they enjoy making mistakes, they are so accustomed to pain and suffering brought upon them. And I think I got more attention when I was an asshole to girls.

Why am I such a nice guy these days is beyond me, my cruel intentions have all but dissipated into thin air.

I am contemplating where to take this girl on wednesday. I mean, do I want to sit down with her and just talk, or hang out with her and do something, or watch a movie or what else? I am uncertain, I would prefer to have a coffee date, but those are rather boring cause all I get to do is pick apart her character.

Or should I take her to some place, and try to make a few moves on her. Ponder. Cant really decide, but I should put some real thought into this, make the most out of this opportunity and go into work tomorrow with a game plan to tell her.

I think atleast if I let my mind wander on this topic, it'll stray away from the other ones that lurk around in my mind. Close my eyes and just ignore those for a while. Just incase those ones all go wrong in one way or another, atleast I will have found something new to move onto.

It is a fine line between caring, and then just caring too much to the point of being overbearing. Sigh, sometimes though, I just am uncertain of myself. I do get set off by the stupidest things. I am really upset about that day a few weeks ago, cause I mean, the fallout effect of it was just for lack of a better word, disaster.

A few days off ahead of me, some time to relax. I have finalyl gotten my appetite back and I ate rather well today to my amazement. I'd sit there in the break room, enjoying my extended 30 minute breaks (as opposed to 15/30/15, I happen to enjoy 30/30/30) I just sat and ate all the food I had brought. Then went home and ate more.

Yeah, its sort of nice. While all these things are just going off around me, I atleast have finally gotten a grasp on my stress and am dealing with it, slowly and surely.

Someone asked me yesterday, why girls were so stupid. I didnt even know where to start.

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