After spending all that money at the festival that comes by every summer. It wasnt until today where I actually felt that I got anything from the whole spending spree.

The sight of my friend and how her eyes lit up when I brought her the stuffed animal that I had won her. The animal was no easy win either and it was insane how much time and money we spent on winning it.

I guess those are the small things that you do have to appreciate.

Spent this entire day out for the most part, I had a few things on my mind that needed to be cleared up and for the most part they were.

And while I do have a possible date tomorrow, I know what I do enjoy when it comes to spending time with girls. Simply enough, just sitting and talking, joking around and enjoying their company is more than enough for me. I will have to put some effort in tomorrow and see what happens, while I shouldnt be too optimistic, I just hope that I atleast get the chance.

I am grateful for a lot of the chances I have had in the past and only wish that I could have done more with them. I do hope that I have learned from all of this and it will only make myself a better person.

While some things are still being tossed around, I do feel at ease for the first time in a while. I understand a lot more now.

I am certain that things at work will still be complicated and a few issues at hand will have to be dealt with when the time comes. I do not think I will think too far ahead for those things.

My ashtray is full, I should empty it out soon. My laundry is being done as we speak, and I still need to shower and prepare for bed, unless something online comes up.

I wonder, sometimes. It can really be summed up, by a single statement. All that could have been.

And I sigh in turn.

But hold my head up high, as always, knowing that, there will always be something else. I'll find it, I know I will.