While a lot of people tell me to be more grateful for the things I have in life, I am always at a doubt. What is so great about my life, what makes mine so special and is there possibly anything in it that would make anyone ever want to switch places with me?

I guess tonight, I would have to tell myself that it is alright being me and to have atleast some people around me that are just simply cool to be with. Even as there was someone absent tonight, I would say the night unfolded into a drunk rowdy party almost.

Monday night bowling, this should be something to be done every week, it is so enjoyable for so many reasons.

When we arrived, I noticed that the waitress was the girl I tried to pick up the last time I was there. Interesting story to say the least and I had some fun making her a little stunned.

I have some doubts about the happiness of some people at the end of the night and things got a little rough near the end of the night. I really do hope that no ones toes got stepped on too much and that it was an enjoyable night for al the people that came out. Cause I had a good time, I smiled, talked trash, got down and dirty. Enjoyable to say the least. However, I'll make the note, that it probably would have been that much more enjoyable if someone had come.

One of the reasons my life is almost enjoyable.

And her again, looking like she always does. (Which is basically better than everyone else)

Two of the girls.

Myself with two other coworkers in the picture.

I never really understood why people drank so much beer.

My angel and the waitress that I tried to pick up.

Sure I guess all of these things together make a life that is pretty decent. A social life, a close friend, things to just pass time and for one night, just not that many worries.

Cynical moment. I still realize that even as I now have a few nice things in life, my own life is still empty at the end of the day. But I guess, if I keep filling my life with things to pass time and occupy my mind, I wont have as much time to dwell on the things that drag me down.

You can always look at it in two different ways, it seems that I enjoy looking at it with a frown. Perhaps that is my own downfall, it is so hard to be optimistic though, with my mind racing the way it does, almost a luxury when I am stoned out of my tree and simply not able to comprehend my surroundings. Breaking down into a gitty laughing fit about the dumbest things, the appeal is that things get that much more simpler.

I did have a pretty good night. But I still thought of someone and wondered why she was stressing so much and just in a bad mood. I tend to care too much sometimes and sadly do see myself as the overprotective type. Maybe I should just let go.

I've had people worry about me when I get really down and out. I never understood why they would, jsut a simple call saying whats up you seem down. I now sort of realize what it feels like when you are the person saying those words. Must have been absolutely frustrating for my friends to listen to my pain, and even more frustrating when I would tell them to leave me alone.

But people need space, I know I need mine. It is just the way we are. unique in every way. These are the things that define us.

Yet I feel weak in the knees, knowing that two girls, who do mean so much to me, have me almost whipped over them. A humble fact being written down by an arrogant mind.

I love my arrogance sometimes, fine line between that and confidence, I am sure I cross it all the time. Things are more entertaining that way.

I really think that waitress is cute.

I really hate the gossip that involves me from coworkers. You cant really block it out sometimes, drunk people stumble up to you and start asking personal things. Stranger yet, these people know things that they shouldnt, and I start to wonder exactly what is going down.

But, it was an enjoyable night.

Currently Listening to [Linkin Park] - Easier To Run