The lyrics to this song make absolutely no sense.

I am writing this thought I had earlier in the day about boys and girls. us guys are pretty stupid and we always get paranoid when we think we did something wrong when in reality nothing is wrong. And but when something is wrong, we simply dont know better and figure everything to be alright.

That means, when we do something wrong, generally, shes not gonna know cause I mean if we thought we got away with it we actually probably did.

This makes no sense, but either way girls are such utter bitches. They always gotta have tests set up and shit and everything can be manipulated by them. Except for like the stupid ones, cause like most girls are stupid in one way or another.

God bless being emotional, probably the dumbest excuse for being stupid.

Well whatever, seeing as I think everything in my life regarding girls is fine, minus having somethign to chase. That must in turn mean, that out there is some girl very angry at me for something or another. Probably some detail that she thinks is the most important thing in the world next to life itself and is utterly meaningless to me.

So how about it.

Yeah shit.

God I am so high.

It is rather difficult to move in this manner, much less think. Instead it feels like being trapped in a state of mind melting onto paper. Transmitted from the brain through the keyboard and onto the monitor. Saved also, cause usually we can forget things. Lots of things.

I think I just got confused by a light in the room for what seemed like minutes there and in reality it was probably me blinking my eyes. Slowly, open and close.

Everything feels so different to the touch and feel. I wonder what it would feel like if I cut myself right now. Hmm, ponder.

In other thoughts, trying to quit smoking is fucking hard. everywhere I look I think about it. Nicotine, the most loyal girlfriend right next to mary jane.

I want to lose myself again. And not find myself for a while.