Restless today, more online politics to deal with. Not really in the mood to care though. Absolutely missing my drugs with a passion right now. The only thing I could have gotten a hold of tonight were mushrooms, frankly the idea of trying to play computer games under the influence of mushrooms would be mind numbing enough for me to never touch a computer again. Therefore, I am thinking with restraint tonight.

Silently sitting at my computer, there is much stress in the household as my other two roommates clash off about all sorts of stupid things and I am caught in the middle. Sure I could play the peacemaker, or try to patch things up. However, I dont think its my job, I'll try to smooth things over a little bit, but there is such tension that I dont really know what to expect. I know that this isnt what I wanted when moving out though. I wanted to find a home to get away from things like this so that I could concentrate on other things in my life, not household issues.

I sigh though. My mind is lusting for confusion. I just want to sit here and waste time and feel good about it.

It'll be a busy week at work, getting pulled into the office on tuesday. Thrilled about it. (Not) Really wondering what I've done wrong this time, probably has something to do with demerits and such, in which case I'd either expect a slap on the wrist or a week vacation while the weather is still nice.

I lost track of this diary entry already, been jumping back and forth. There are many thoughts on my mind, I sometimes wish they werent there. Actually, I always want that, to be sitting and just mindless and content, knowing that the next moment will be fine, the next day will be alright.

Just a dream.

Things always find a way to go wrong, call me a cynic. But its true. Always for me.

I wish I had some drugs. But its probably in my best interests to try to clean up a bit.