Really really really spinning. Thats just too much, that mvoei is just too much. oh shit man, it was a horrible movie, fuck, requiem for a dream man, thats just a wrong movie. heh

really messed up.

heh

christs

i cant event sleep

its like ab ad dream everythign is like a bad dream.

so messed up heh. its jsut liek a bad dream a bad waking dream. the worst experience in the world. ugh. this is too much heh. god damnit its too much that movie is too much.

its hautning. almsot like its calling out to you to go back and watch it. horrible. fuck that shit. that is all messed up.

eveyrtime i close my eyes, i see it. this life infront of me, and its really just a bad dream like the movie. fuck. this all all messed up. everytime you open your eyes it just makes no sense. ugh. like one of those bad, i saved the world while high dreams but when i woke up i cant remember anything abouyt it.

sorta sucks.

it'll be on of thsoe moments in life. just a bad dream.

ugh i need a shower, then im goign to bed, that movie is going to haunt my dreams fucking messed up shit you cant even begin to imagine how messed up it is.

you cant imagine how thigns can be that fucked up in everything. bad waking dream.

thats all it is

a bad waking dream.

like cocaine, you cant ever forget it. its always there for you.

all messed up, and wasted beyond belief/.

none of this makes sense.

fuck

all day all night nothing makes sense. its like a bad dream anyways. ugh

my head spiinninggg

too much around me too much gottaaaa lseeep

jsut found myself here typing still

oh man thats ab dar thing

down i go

snf

trails

into

sleep

vsny

gothry hoe

mrddrf iy id

rbrtyyhinh

dsfopjfg

really just messed uip

sdfkj

heh

god what horrible drugs

thats whats in life, drugs and more

i like this fucked shit up

freedom of mind

no one can know what it is

close your eyes, open them to a bad dream

thats all it is

eveyr opening of the eye, nothing beyond

no

more

i cant see

there is no insight nothing else, just hated for a lot of thigns in life

and it flows

faster

now it flows

i cant take more contorl

all messed up

whatever this is great heh, god i think the dog attacked me today.

tomrorow is just goign to be like one bad dream thats all....

take this sou laway from me

horrible song

oh god heh, my legs are feeling funny heh

al;ll mssed up tryign to talk and communiciate before it all takes over me

bad slipknot dream

aaaaaa take it all away from me.

going to go close my eyes after this

have to shwoer first

what a night, a horrible messed up night. jesus fucking christs. what an idiot.

heh

if you read that much

idiot

heh

so much htought and so much empty space aroudn me, there is a lot of ewn

[

just space

my head hurts heh

too much

too

this is too much

ugh

horrible i cant close my eyes

its all over

eyver where

acks

it talks

and you hear things everywhere all around you cant imagine what its like

everyone is against you.

its like fear

petried

fear

to have no movement at all, and you cant imagine it. like

you can only write about it to communicateh ow messed up it was so that when i open my eyes, i'll know the night was done, and it was just long.....

it keeps going

i hate it

eveyrtime

i

open my eyes

the night is still around me

god damnit

screaming away

i hate the night

whwa

k

[

ack

too much

this shit is too much

oh god

what a horrible horrible experience

of fear

nothing short

of

fear

and you can read it

and udnerstand it

that nothing more

but fear

nothing around

but that

can you hear the thoughts ehcoing around you

no

nothing but silence

fuck that shit movie was messed up

oh shit

heh

its all messed up heh

screaming

bad

iaaahhh

this night wont stop

p

dafkjsd

like a bad dream thats all

dasklfj;dlskfj

stop

now

i make it stop

sad;lkshfg

scream

just scream all around nothing

it wont stop

ack

must

submit

too much

to handle

fuck this

all fucked up man, thats too much crap to handle.

what time is it

its all around

eveyrhting

silence

that movie sucks

heh

its like still around

i dont think watching that movie was a bad ideas hehe

that movie is bad

all messed up

wha w saste

time

there is no waste of time like this what fheua

heh

fsa'jfdslkj

whatever

i cant hear you

stop talking to me

i cant hear

stop

stop

I CANT

ack

its too much

stop

sa

[kds

f[k

hows it all there

nothing

just

waking u pagain

bad waking dreams everywhere

stop

talking

you are tripping me out

yeah man

thats bad

heh

just close your eyes

heh

horrible images all around and messed up no more going to sleep now.

thats all messed up

im lost

i cant think

oh shit

im home

alone

in a corner

hiding

away from everything else around me it consumes me like nothing you can believe

exhale

are horrible drugs

horrible

i cant think

mind numbing

close my eyes and everything will go away

its around me

everywhere

the cat

ack

just woke up again

another life

where am i

where are you

i dont know where i am

shiiiiiit

i wrote down the whole experience

for a log to look back on

a trip

an adventure

like a movie

its hard to stomach and hard to watch, but you do, its life, and it sucks. ugh

i gotta get in the shower

going to bed now

this goes bye

nessed up heh