Well, after waiting for so long, wondering what story had to be told. Matrix revolutions finally came around, and as I had anxiously counted down today while at work. The movie was probably the biggest disappointment I have seen. I mean, I have never had such expectations for a movie before and for the whole thing to come up so limp, it was kind of lame.

No spoilers of course, just that I walked out of that as irritated as when I walked out of Jurassic Park 3.

Smoking some bud now, one toke before I write some more.

Using a pretty cute pipe to do some smoking, its very useful.

I think after today, I will apply for that supervisor position. I'll have to do up a resume tomorrow and email it to my friends to fax over, but I will get that done. Mark my words.

I found some more of myself today. Just a little bit of venting, a bit more understanding. It seems that all it takes to be a little more content with life is to be a little more selfish. Instead of analyzing everything, just contemplate my own personal interests.

Some answers brought to me, a new page turned. Its an alright view upon things. I cant really think about it right now, but it does make sense. There is an impulsive push towards a direction.

Cant move, mind froze. A moment of just nothing. Staring into space, without anything going on in my head. Such a luxury.

Overanalyzing everything around me. Motives within motives. Always there and twisting.

Manipulating.

I am there, playing the puppeteer. Just enjoy my show.

I think I had an alright night though, it was enlightening while depressing. A small price to pay, in this growing up process which appears to take forever for me.

I want to close my eyes, and open them with an understanding over everything around me. That way I dont have to analyze, because I will just know.

With certainty.

And so with this end, comes a new beginning. Maybe this is what I was holding my breath for.

Ya know, at the end of matrix revolutions, unlike the other two matrix movies, they didnt have rage against the machine play at the end.

Man, that movie realyl was not the bomb, I dont know why, it was good in many ways, but empty in the ways that made the movie good.

I dont know, rambling now. Ranting and raving.