Some new tracks downloaded today, all kinda nice songs, I'll probably make a playlist out of them and crank it tonight while I sleep.

Not much has happened lately, just in and out as always. Smoking massive amount of drugs in further attempt to numb myself. So far so good, things are alright. Birthday approaches quickly, and I havent even decided if I was going out for it yet. We'll see, dont think that many people would come anyways, but who knows. No real plans yet though, its not a major concern to me.

After all, its a date that is to celebrate me being brought into existence. Why should I be happy for the suffering I've endured since. Life is no gift, its a burden.

Back on night shifts soon, dont know whether to jump for joy or cringe in pain. Its like that these days at work. I grow a little antisocial for the most part, just concentrate on doing the job and time goes by faster.

Found a little present in my car today in a pack of cigarettes. A half smoked hash joint. Pretty nice considering I was out of drugs to smoke today. Probably makes it like three months and running everyday straight.

A bad sign.

But liberating a few inner demons.

But I guess, I'll go back to playing comptuer games, should be doing this more since I enjoy it.