A moment of silence, for what was a terrible day which shall be remembered.

I woke up, to silence, my computer had suffered some major crash. My main hard drive (aka UBER DRIVE) was not even registering when I booted into DOS. Holding back tears and podnering other choices, I decided to format my hard drive.

Everything, was lost.

Everything I have saved over the past few years from old computer to next to next.

Lost.

Memories. I never hold many memories close, there isnt much physical items that I keep over the years. I had hoped to keep my logs and conversations and pictures as reminders. I'll miss those the most, as mp3s and movies and cartoons can be replaced. Those other files cant.

I was always a lazy bastard, and even noticed problems occuring with my computer lately. I should have backed up more of my files.

Now I have but 10 megs of pictures, most of which were saved online. No mp3s, no logs, nothing.

Like a part of me died today, and will never be restored to what it was.

All I can do is sigh. I have so many things that need to be done before my 21st birthday it isnt funny. I have done nothing. These past few months, have been a complete waste of time, but for the better.

I guess.

I really dont know what to think, I should just smoke some more hash and be done with the day. I have errands to run tomorrow and things to complete before the weekend. Sigh.

I actualyl felt sad today.

Its a crappy feeling, I hope I never feel it again.