This song is just amazing, thats all I can say about it.

Well, today is my birthday, I have had a pretty entertaining week so far, and minus the frustration I have in me right now I am just great.

My frustration comes from being in that poker room for 3 hours and having a table of people who can easily be beat, and I jsut played bad. Folding several times on the turn when my river came up because I wasnt willing to gamble on the river. I did win my share of hands and spent the majority of the time from when I sat down up a lot of chips. But cashed out out 30 bucks. When by all means, I should have doubled my money.

Kinda of interesting that after I took a break to go smoke some hash, came back in and proceeded to win a few hands in a row and stare down some asian punks at the other end of the table.

I guess it wasnt bad, as I was playing at that table as if I was playing against tight good players, which really wasnt the case I should have actually gambled with such a week table.

Sigh, could have had my rent money made all from gambling this month if I walked early, instead I am just ahead a bit.

This week has been great really. Things are alright minus the concern that is my internet. As it has a habit of cutting out in the middle and going dead for a few days. I'll call my server and discuss this problem with them.

So many drugs left, I have to stop. I said that after my birthday, it would become a casaul thing instead of a daily thing.

Well, it would be a waste to just throw away all this good stuff. Mark my words though, this habit does stop. I have gotten what I wanted out of it.

All I can do is sigh.

Today was entertaining at work. I do realize that I now perform best when there is money or betting involved. I found myself toying with the idea of flirting with this girl, for the sake of winning money.

It was nice really, should I fail, we dump the blame on the bet. Should we succeed, good times are on for more entertainment.

I find my memory not really able to function, while for the most part it remains perfect, lately it gets a little forgetful about minor details.

It should recover though, there are so many things I do want to continue to write about, or touch upon, but tonight is not the night as I am sitll extremely irritated.

Sigh.

I remember last year on my birthday I took a full month away from my diary after. I look back, and do think I have grown a lot again this year, mostly mentally, but still, another year closer towards my own self determined perfection.