This year is ending. I have a lot of loose ends to finish up. Just to get the new year started fresh.

Well, lets get this started right, I'll finish eating my little meal I have prepared myself after my workout at the gym, then it'll be down to my thoughts.

I was going to go through my inbox and read mails again before I cleared everything out. However, i am having second thoughts now.

Do I want to put myself in a state of mind where I can remember how I felt. That answer would be no, it would be a waste of my time and only bring pain. So to fix this problem, we'll just go wipe the entire inbox of everything.

36 messages deleted.

Thats a lot more than I have initially thought.

Oh well.

Some things are better forgotten.

Work was a challenge today. Working under extremely busy conditions while under the influence of substances is more difficult when paranoia strikes.

However, I managed to survive and escape without incident. These last few days at work have all been uneventful in that sense. Its like I went for a little trip today jsut for something to write about. I am uncertain of that.

I just realized right now, that I am rather stoned. Only took 4 really good pulls to get me high, pretty good weed I must admit.

Alright, that last hit was a pretty hefty one. It has basically put us into the state of no return.

Absolutely fucking really fucking high right now.

And this is how I will start the new year. With a certain feeling that I know all too well.

Being fucking high, and not giving two shits about anything in my life.

Of course shame my resolutions will be to quit smoking, quit doing drugs, quit gambling and go to the gym five times a week.

The scary part is, its very easily doable for me to do all of the above.

Currently Listening to [Faithless] - We Come One