Been a while, kind of rough few days just not really all gathered.

Down a lot of moeny this month so far to gambling, not extremely pleased. I wont be angry about the hundred I lost today play poker cause I do not think I was playing bad, I just wasnt getting any cards on the flop. Sometimes its like that and thats poker, you cant outplay certain people who will bet/call you to the end with a half shit hand and they get luckier than you.

It happens.

I am disgusted at my addiction to the craps table though.

For some reason I found the craps dealer to be extremely attractive. Now everyone I tell this to, asks me well whats she look like?

Short girl, long brown hair (dyed) nice features, jsut overall a girl that I classify as cute.

The catch is simple too.

Shes asian.

Blink.

Blink.

Thats right. I actually found an asian girl to be attractive.

Amazing. I dont really know what to say, I am awfulyl tempted to openly hit on her when I goto the casino. But judgement says not to.

I should jsut stay away from the casino a bit.

Sigh. There is just this huge amazing void in my life right now I have no idea what to do. Atleast if I goto the casino I can spend like hundred dolalrs and be entertained for the duration of the night.

Sigh.