To be utterly detached from everything almost.

These days, I dont really care anymore. Whatever happens will happen. I have a set goal of going to the gym and eating well and saving up to goto europe this summer. Thats it.

Stuck in a horrible workplace. Though I guess the people make it worthwhile, while at a generally stressful cost.

I miss the old days though, they weren't bad. Basically they were the same though I guess in that way. All my groups of friends that I go through are kinda like that.

Each one of them are just another learning experience in my life.

Sometimes I do wish to stay still for longer than 3 years. But its hard.

Like a pattern in my life. Every 3 years my surroundings change.

What can you really say to these things though. It isnt that I hate the people around me. I just wonder if the connection which was the job itself were to be eliminated, I dont really think that a lot of those people will be hanging around.

Or vice versa who knows. Things always change so quickly.

I am saving up to goto europe, I think it would be an extremely enjoyable three weeks. I feel that I am actually old enough to go out and enjoy the sights for myself. And of course, the chance to meeting new people.

Maybe I'll see a real party while I am there too.

Been gambling lately, once a week every friday night. So far after three sessions. I am up almsot two hundred dollars. Which I think while low, is very respectable. Gotta learn to wlak away sooner.

But sometimes I always want to give people a chance to earn it back. I am too generous.

Sigh, I am going to sleep. I hope work doesnt call. A day off is always enjoyable, cause it is a day to catch up and prepare for the following days.

Life is so boring. Its so trivial in you either get addicted or consumed by something pointless. Or you can choice to go live that soap opera nightmare of a life.

Girls, nothing but trouble.

I reserve the right to be cruel to anyone with a heartbeat.