I think that I am feeling this spring that it is a new year again. The last few months have been a real drain, but I guess there are things to look forward to.

Didnt have a good night at the poker table. If anything it was a poorly played night. Some of the moves were good, but others were misjudged. If anything I wasnt aggressive enough.

However I dont think there were that many bad plays.

I feel this need now, to get up and do things. Even be remotely social to an extent. I had grown rather comfortable in my hole for the long winter. There is a new sense of confidence.

I was flirting today for about an hour with a girl at the bar. It was amusing really. Cause I said exactly what I wanted to say, and dont really care what happens.

That is perfection in itself. Cause really. I haven othing to lose, and dont really want to waste time to lets just cut to the chase.

Sigh.

I want to get out more again. I have almost put my online life on freeze for the last week and just been doing things on a daily basis almost.

And there is that desire, I dont know where it coems from, a wanting urge to just be out there and maybe doing something.

Anything but being at home, lonely, sulking, wasting away.